Le Sigh

What a weekend! Packed with theatre - yes, that's right I did what I never do and actually saw theatre that other people make (people who I know and heart but, I mean, all the same..). I wonder if it's painful for musicians to go to concerts or for artists to visit the MCA or if it's particular to theatre folk that the last thing we want to do (or Disclaimer: I speak for only myself lots of folks are in love with the theatre and see it all the time) is to sit in a dark space watching actors emote. Particularly as a stage manager - it's so hard for me not to count the lighting instruments in the air or think, "wow that scene shift was f'ing EPIC". Long story short I saw three great shows this weekend and it was awesome! Of course all of them closed this weekend or I would pimp them out (to you, all three readers of this long defunct now suddenly viable again blog). Speaking of pimping out - check out www.storiesandwine.com and come to The Spot this Thursday for some dirty 2nd Story action...it's going to blow your mind!

The boy I heart left town this morning - which P.S. I heart him so much that I got up at bleep o'clock to drive him to Midway and then navigated the Stevenson on the way back to the city - which yeepers meepers highway driving in someone else's car makes me such a nervous Nelly that I had to put Bon Iver on my iPod and think happy thoughts just to get through it.. It's so strange when someone you share a life with is gone for a bit - it's even stranger that he is visiting the Homeland (also known as beautiful Connecticut - ah, CT in the summer, the ocean and frozen Charleston Chews and Friendly's watermelon roll...how I miss you!) which is something we usually do together but due to vacation timing (or lack of vacation for me, yay temping!) it just didn't work out that way.

It looks like I am going perm at my temp job (benefits and sick days and 401K Oh My!) and I am pretty excited to make it officially official. This is the first job I've ever worked (that wasn't stage managing) where it was actually work, like honest to god, every minute I'm doing something work. Plus the folks I work with work just as hard AND are some of the nicest people I've met in a long time. So, yay! Not taking a vacation pays off some times...

I fell on the way to work a week ago, like a clumsy doozer that I am, and scraped my right knee up pretty badly (P.S. I just had to make the L and non-L with my hands to figure out which knee I scraped...ah, lack of sleep, how well you make me function)..I haven't had serious ooky, gross wound-age like this in a while. Let me tell you knees bend and scabs don't and that's about as detailed as I'm going to get. It's healing and I hope it gets better by the time my friends Jo and Nicole's Yay! Lesbian Wedding gets here next week. Let me tell you my Bestie Mikey is coming in town for this extravaganza and I really, honestly cannot wait to see him and have some good old fashion best friend talks with him, it's going to be awesome..

The summer is almost over, it seems like it just got here and I have to say although it's been rough it's been full of nice surprises and new friends and I feel like I'm getting there - you know that feeling that happens a lot when you're younger and then tapers off to maybe a twice a year occurrence - it's that great, "I have no idea where I'm going but I'm getting there!" feeling...So yay Summerer 2008! I will eat a watermelon roll from Friendlys in your honor as soon as I get back to the East Coast!

Things that are Yay!:
1) Summer Days with Friendies: I hung out with Heather today and it was just the bestest! I heart friends who you can just spend a lazy summer day with!
2)Good Theatre: A rariety (except for 2nd Story but what can i say? We are just good!) Good theatre makes me happy!

Things that are Boo:
1) Sweating for no reason

On the Cusp...

Taking a deep breath over here... Spring is always a crazy time of year - seriously, more people suffer nervous breakdowns and serious bouts of depression during the spring time than any other time because all of the blooming, the growing, the change reminds people just how stuck they are. Stuck works in the winter, it's cozy in the winter and a slap in the face on the first 70 degree day..This spring has been even crazier than usual what with the lack of serious permanent jobage and the chaos of the 2nd Story Fest (yay! we are awesome!).

I find myself drifting through the day, distracted by a million tugs on the sleeve of my subconcious. Little things have become hard to do and big things like job interviews and organizing schedules now seem so much easier than figuring out what to wear or how to keep in touch with the bajillion of friends that I no longer can keep a handle on...lameness... But, the lameness is breaking up just like the winter weather has and I find myself on the cusp of something potentially good- a job, a new one that is in a totally foreign much more corporate environment - which I'm thinking of as "Yay new environment! I will approach this like I'm Uncle Traveling Matt on the Fraggles and just observe how strange corporate shit works". To be honest I've worked in a quite a few creative offices in the past couple of years and the chance to work in an atmosphere that has honest to god rules and boundaries seems like a nice change of pace... I say this now...This is quite a big change though and it means that the "Holy shitballs! How am I going to pay my rent AND buy groceries!" worries may be over! Hoorah!

The Boy I heart and I went to the Dog Park this weekend (P.S. Big Ups to Puptown, the best dog park in Chicago !) and my head almost exploded with all of the cute dog-ness running around. Puggles and terriers and labs and golden retrievers all running in never ending circles with intermittent breaks to suck down some water. I heart going to the dog park (although not so much the dog beach because it's, well, it's kind of too much and also kind of like standing in a big pile of gross because you know that every dog that has visited has used the beach for business other than ball catching) but, I heart the dogs and not so much the people.. I mean there was a guy there this Sunday who must have just gotten his first digital camera before coming to the park because he was up in everyone's junk taking pictures, getting in the dogs ways - I mean let them have their room, it's their time! - and totally neglecting his seven year old son who was literally throwing himself around in the gravel, which is recockulously disgusting, I mean I barfed a little in my mouth... Long story short the amount of cute dogs outweighed the effects of rude folks and it made me hopeful that this summer will bring tons of surprises and more days of lazing around watching cute things run in circles...

I feel caught between places, moments, jobs, seasons right now. Life is a jig saw puzzle who's pieces almost match up and it is driving me a bit crazy. I am no good at living in the gray areas, at handling the in betweens and that is what the past few months have schooled me in. Learning to not only accept each bump in the road but also to learn from it, to trust that whatever comes along it's really not the end of the world (unless it is the end of the world - I just watched Cloverfield and that shit is scary).

Things that are Yay!:
1) The Worst Hard Time by Tim Egan - A book about the Great Depression, more specifically the Dust Bowl. I can hear you thinking "Awesome Heather! Like actual real life isn't depressing enough!" And yes, this story is depressing which is probably why I never really got all the facts about it but, it is so much more than that. It is inspiring that folks lived through four years straight of drought and dust storms, that they had the tenacity to hold on. It is also just a really great book that gives the reader all of the facts without skimping on the actual people's story... Really good! P.S. Because I'm reading this I turned to Dave during a thunderstorm last night and said "People living in the Dust Bowl fired explosives into clouds to make this sort of shit happen!" to which he replied "Nerd - O!"

2) The Bryant Park Project - NPR Podcasts how I heart you! Especially this twice a day bad boy that makes working on expense sheets twenty times easier...

3) My friend Heather - Who said "Why haven't you blogged lately?" which made my heart grow two sizes bigger because I honestly think that nobody reads this..She is amazing and I am lucky to have a friend to not only drink margaritas with but who also tells me the truth, straight up on a daily basis...She is gold!

4) 30 Rock - Lately has been too good to be true! Is it getting funnier?!? Is that even possible?!?!?

5) Curling Irons! - Used to be on my boo list because of an unfortunate curling iron accident that occurred backstage during a Betty Jane Turner Dance Recital when I was six (dancing the Can Can, might I add!) but now has rocketed to the top of the Yay! because, honestly, I have not been able to afford to get hair done and this bad boy makes it looks so bouncy like Shirley Temple! Whoot!

Things that are Boo:

1) Saying Goodbye - to all of the truly awesome, funny, creative in the best sense of the word, folks that I've worked with for the past three months... They make this job the best!

2) Starting Yet Another New Job - Makes me so nervy! Yipers!

Spring Has Sprung! And Other Nonsense...

Wow...so, how about March, huh? That's really all I have to say about the whole month that I've been away from this rambling side project of mine... March was kind of the same as right now but colder (but not by much) and with a few special guest appearances (Hi Tones - if you read this! Hi Mikey and Scott! It was great seeing you all, I miss you which is really what seeing you made me realize is that the world seems small but isn't quite small enough...come visit again!).

I am still at the temp job, plugging away. Still waiting for things to work out, for the promise of an actual position there (meep,yip, yay! Benefits and sick days and working somewhere where I heart everyone so much!) to come through...Last month I was out on interviews at least twice a week, then scheduling for the 2nd Story Festival started and now...not so much. I got three interviews in with a really nice company (located at the Opera House, which made feel very bougie bouge but, in actuality was kind of rickety and run down in a very 1950's office building sort of way - not the opera house just the office building inside of the opera house) and it was down to one other person and me and it turned out, story of my life, that she had more experience than I did.....Oh well, I guess.

I have finally finished scheduling tech rehearsals for all 100+ folks - directors, designers, storytellers - involved in this years 2nd Story Festival (well, almost finished - there is this one story that refuses to have all three people's schedules match up but it will get solved soon). I never remember how stressful it is to do, what an undertaking it is, like birthing a huge Microsoft table of a baby. We had our first Press Performance this weekend and it seems to have gone really well, which is no surprise because we rock and deliver stories and wine and live music that will make your brain explode! Buy tickets (all two people who read this blog and probably don't even live in Chicago I'm looking at you - Buy Tickets!!) www.storiesandwine.com

Enough shilling you say! Give us an update on exciting stuff like how the boy I heart and I took our bikes out finally on that one warm weekend day several weeks ago. How we biked up the river front path - which P.S. that path is a sneaky beast and will disappear on you and throw you into Devon Avenue traffic and you will be all "What, what what?!? How did I leave behind scenic polluted waterfront and end up confronting four lanes of crazy Chicago driving" - and ended up seeing the sculpture park (pretty) And THEN we went... to the mall. The ghetto fabulous Lincolnwood mall to be exact. We are from Connecticut the mall is like visiting home without the guilt, although we are both broke so it's exactly like visiting home! We had Auntie Ann's (not the full pretzel, thankyouverymuch, just the little pretzel sticks because they seemed less "I'M A BAD FOR YOU AUNTIE ANNS PRETZEL" , although if assembled I'm sad to say they probably add up to a whole pretzel..le sigh) and went to Kay's Jewelry and pretended to look at rings just to egg on the poor souls working there..I'm telling you it was good times wrapped in a 14 mile bike ride (yipes it hurt to sit, or to walk, or to even think of riding a bike the next day).

Life is puttering along. Spring seems like it will never get here and I seem endlessly tired lately... Endlessly tired and craving baked sweet potatoes, which is just weird, although not the worse thing to crave so I'm letting it slide. Things are good and getting better which is what this time of year should be about...So, Yay Spring, please get here soon, and without lots of rain, and with only sunny non-windy days so I can bike to work..Oh forget it, just Yay Spring!

Things that are Yay:
1. New Netflix Obsessions - Manor House (so they take a family and a whole cast of regular folks and make them live in this ginormous mansion and live like they are back in Edwardian times. Really upstairs/downstairs type of stuff... Totally fascinating and reality drama but with enough educational bits to make me feel less guilty. So good! P.S. midway through realized Mikey, Jess and I had watched this before (nerds!) But it was still good!) Michael Palin's Around the World in 80 Days (Mikey and I took a geography class Senior year of college and oh the stories I could tell about the shenanigans that went on but the main point is we watched a different Michael Palin traveling miniseries. So, I wanted to check this one out and now Dave and I are semi-hooked. Michael Palin is funny AND this was filmed in the late 80's which is fascinating - I mean the USSR existed, so did bad hair, like I said fascinating. Really good) From the Earth to the Moon (The HBO mini-series produced by Tom Hanks keep coming. I was obsessed by Band of Brothers, everyone who knows me has heard all about it. For some reason although this is really good, and the story of how NASA got a man to the moon is engrossing I'm just not feeling it, perhaps some limbs will start getting blown off and then I will like it as much...KIDDING!)

2. This American Life - A mainstay of the Yay! list but must be mentioned because lately it has been really good...Plus in the morning I can't stand music anymore (mayhaps I'm just becoming old or maybe I just hate the morning and loud noise makes me more conscious of it) and the length of an episode is the perfect one to get me downtown and near coffee.

3. Dinner at the Homesick Restaurant by Anne Tyler - This book kills me every time, it is beautifully written and just so true, it just tells the truth about growing up in a family with an absent dad in such a true way. I recently re-read it and fell in love again. Yay Anne Tyler!

Things that are Boo:
1. Winter weather when it's spring - It snowed this weekend people - SNOWED! I know Chicago isn't known for being a paradise weather-wise (encased meat wise on the other hand, we have it covered: brats and polish's and oh everything, I don't mean to brag..) This weather makes everyone cranky and on edge..

2. Stupid Three Trains on One Track - LISTEN CTA, this "project" which you are "working" on whereby all there train lines heading Southbound, in the morning, when we are going to work, better pay off because seriously, seriously this is suck city...

For Really Reals.....No Really

Ok, I have been absent doing non-bloggy, "real worldy" type things for the past month....I also haven't wanted to blog, to share, to spew forth meaningful sentiments and thoughts because well, because I suddenly became unemployed a couple of weeks ago (Merry Christmas to me!). You have to understand that although I was unhappy at my new-ish (now suddenly gone, poof, dunzo) job I had no idea that A) I was doing a bad job, or even a semi-bad job B) things like being fired happened to me, I mean seriously I am demanding of myself and I just am still somewhat gape mouthed about the whole thing C)searching for a job during the most Holiday of times would be quite the experience that is has become.

In the grand tradition of my WASP-Y forefathers (and mothers) this is not a post to moan, to explain how terribly blue the days seem when all you want to do is something that feels vaguely useful that doesn't involve Monster.com or sitting at a computer revamping a resume that utilizes the terms "Administrative, Implemented process' and bookeeping" way too many times....Oh No this post is about making lemons from lemonade my friends. Below are my top five favorite things about this whole experience:

1.) Temp agencies all have the same automated tests - It's True! I am now registered with three different employment agencies and I have to say the worst part about the two hours it takes to register at these places is the testing. The Microsoft Word test, the data entry test, the Excel test...etc... I usually have The Dread about computer skills test that don't let you use shortcuts which are what everyone uses because, well because they are Awesometown and make things ten thousand million times easier! But after realizing that all temp agencies use the same testing software I had the last laugh! By the time I did the third agencies test I was a MENSA level computer skills genius......hoorah!

2) As an underemployed person - (phew, it still seems weird to type that)- you now have a legitimate excuse for not buying a Streetwise...

3) During the holiday season the last thing that people want to do is interview potential workers, although if you do get an interview be thankful and commiserate with them. I had an interview at a law firm the week before Christmas and we spent more time talking smack about O'Hare then we did about the position itself..I still haven't heard back from that company but, at least I had the pleasant experience of dishing about which terminal in O'Hare has the best Hudsons bookstore.....and let me say it was worth going downtown just for that....

4) When home for the holidays and underemployed realize that folks asking about your job while unaware that you until recently had a job and are still mourning the loss of that job aren't being cruel they are just being people. MAN, when you can't talk about the weather anymore people love to talk abut who works where... In this instance it is ok and not lying to pretend your job still exists because really nothing brings down the holiday spirit more than unemployement talk.....

5) When it seems impossible it really is ok. This is truth people. Bigger things happen in the world everyday then losing jobs or gaining jobs (i.e Pakistan, Iraq, cancer). If you are semi-literate, presentable and have a good phone voice (qualities I thankfully have) then you will get hired. You just have sit around watching Netflix for few days (La Vie En Rose - brilliant a bit long but the actress who played Piaf was stunning, No Reservations - Good, I wish I was Anthony Bourdain, Peep Show - One of the funniest BBC comedies I've seen, The Black Adder - Not one of the funniest BBC comedies I've ever seen, Rowan Atkinson slightly annoys me,yeah I said it!) until the holidays pass and all will right itself.

So, I went home for a week of crazy Connecticut Christmas madness...a post for another day - got a head cold lost entire portions of Christmas Eve and Day because of a deadly mix of cold medicine, slept on an air mattress in the basement of my Mom's condo, saw good friends, had lots of yummy food...yada yada...It was a nice break from all of the stuff I've listed above. During the Holidays it almost seems like everyone is unemployed.....